Saturday, June 16, 2012

我怨你~


老天爷

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么要把我的写成这样。。
我对您许的愿很过分吗?

每当我向您许愿时,
除了要家人平安顺利
就是望我有个平凡幸福。。
我从没求过要荣华富贵。。
只求要个我的男人健康家庭简单幸福。。
但你却让我失去我所爱。。

为什么

我怨你。。。

曾想过,
这是你因为你要告诉我,他并不是我的未来吗?
是你想告诉我他无法给到我幸福吗?

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么又要让我遇见我不该爱的人?
怨你为什么又要让我爱他爱的如此无可救药??

就算他犯了不可原谅的,我都能够不骂不打得去原谅。。
就算明知他撒了许多的谎言都选择去相信。。
就算他一次又一次的对我如此狠心我都对他念念不忘。。

我明知他是如此的一个人。。
明明就如此的恨这个人,
却还望着他有天会回到我身边。。
耐心的底线不停的为他延长。。
眼泪哭干了又生产。。

为什么

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么我向你求救了那么久,我的路却还是那么难熬?
怨你为什么要抛弃我?

我知道我不是最乖,不是最完美。。
但我不停的去改变,努力的让自己变得更好。。
你却充没为我改变我的路程。。

我怨你。。。

我这一生中只深深的爱过两个男生。。
但他们却是我的不可能。。

你让我狠狠的跌了两次。。
是要我变得更自私,更狠心吗?
我不自私的付出我的爱,却不停的被糟蹋。。
我不狠心的去原谅,却不停的被糊弄。。

我怨你。。。

为什么要让他回到我身边
当我跌了再站起来时,为什么要让我再踩进陷阱呢?

为什么

为什么要让我认为失而复得幸福的到来呢?
为什么要让我承受更残酷的痛呢?

我怨你。。。

怨你让我如此不由自主的去一个我恨入骨的人。。
怪你为什么让人们相信好人有好报
让我拼了命去为人,把全心真心都挖出来去对待人,
却得到如此的报应。。

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么如此的一个我心寒,却爱到愿意的人。。。

为什么

为什么还让我为他如此心痛??

为什么

为什么还让我如此想念??

为什么

为什么还让我如此爱他???


 

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Satisfy, Proud.. Appreciated? Not d Person I Wished to~

Felt so Satisfy n Proud wit My Green Bean Dessert~^^

Its Yummy though..


Well.. At least I felt so..



Haiz..

But d Him dat I Wished so Much to like it?

Doesn't even wanna Try?..

T_T

Sweet But Short~

He came into my Dream laz Nite*

We were in the Library..

Sitting so Closely,

Discussing over a book~


Can You please come in Earlier next time?

At least Bid me a Proper Gudbye B4 my Alarm clock Strikes off??

Hmmm~

Monday, April 23, 2012

I Might Not Nid A "G".. But At Least Gimme A "C"~


I had once said dat Us as Gurls do Not nid a guy to Survive~

Ask Urself afta U carried a Whole Bunch of Groceries home,


Do U feel Gud & Satisfied?



Well..

Not Onli satisfied..

I actually feel Proud of Myself^^


*Phew..

Though so..

Gotta Admit dat Gurls are Born to be Protected.. :-$

No Guys? Well at Least giv Us a Car to help carry?

Its oso a State of Independent though~

Right?? *Winkx 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

An Expected But Unwanted News fr Home~

See dis Cute Little One?
How Much Wud U LUV Him?
*Sad~
I had juz received a call fr Home..
A call fr my Bro-In-Law claimin He wanted a DIVORCE~
Wats Marriage all About??
Dis Kid is less den 2Years Old!!
Whose fault?
Who m I to Judge?
No matter Who's Fault isit,
D Kid is Inocent... T_T



Wat sud I do??

How do I help my Family fr Breaking down?

How do I help dis Poor Nephew of mine?



Saturday, April 14, 2012

Apologize 4 d Missing In Action~


I'm Sincerely Apologizin 4 Missin In Action~

I'd Realize oni dat In Here,

I can Express my Happi, Hurt or Numb w/o Annoyin Others..

Instead of Flooding ppl's Wall, Oni those who Care or Interested will Drop by~

Here's some Update~

I had a New Job,

Well not exactly New though; as I had Fly for omost 2yrs~

I patched up wit Him 2yrs ago~
D "Him" which I'm with when I started Bloggin~

I Accepted Him with d Heart which Craves for Luv & Happiness..

Juz like when He's afta me,

D way he wans So much 4 me to Accept His Luv*

4 d 1st few Months,

I realli did feel like I'd found my Own Fairy-Tale...

*Sigh

Isit True dat Fairy-Tale doesnt Laz in Reality?

We r Together.. We Luv.. *Do we?

We r so Close.. But yet so Far..

I'm so Confuse..

Crying juz doesnt solve Our Problem...

D Urge of leaving Him is so Strong..

So Strong..

Y am I holding Bac?

Honestly.. I dun know..

Sumhow,

I'm Still Hopin dat one day,

He'll Understand~

*Big Sigh~

I'm Still Holding On Though!!

Thanks for all d Nice Comment & Great Smile^^

I'll Hold on Wit All Those Smiles Tru my Path!!