Saturday, June 16, 2012

我怨你~


老天爷,

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么要把我的路写成这样。。
我对您许的愿很过分吗?

每当我向您许愿时,
除了要家人平安顺利,
就是望我有个平凡的幸福。。
我从没求过要荣华富贵。。
只求要个疼我的男人,健康的家庭,简单的幸福。。
但你却让我失去我所爱。。

为什么?

我怨你。。。

曾想过,
这是你因为你要告诉我,他并不是我的未来吗?
是你想告诉我他无法给到我幸福吗?

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么又要让我遇见我不该爱的人?
怨你为什么又要让我爱他爱的如此无可救药??

就算他犯了不可原谅的错,我都能够不骂不打得去原谅。。
就算明知他撒了许多的谎言都选择去相信。。
就算他一次又一次的对我如此狠心我都对他念念不忘。。

我明知他是如此的一个人。。
明明就如此的恨这个人,
却还望着他有天会回到我身边。。
耐心的底线不停的为他延长。。
眼泪哭干了又生产。。

为什么?

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么我向你求救了那么久,我的路却还是那么难熬?
怨你为什么要抛弃我?

我知道我不是最乖,不是最完美。。
但我不停的去改变,努力的让自己变得更好。。
你却充没为我改变我的路程。。

我怨你。。。

我这一生中只深深的爱过两个男生。。
但他们却是我的不可能。。

你让我狠狠的跌了两次。。
是要我变得更自私,更狠心吗?
我不自私的付出我的爱,却不停的被糟蹋。。
我不狠心的去原谅,却不停的被糊弄。。

我怨你。。。

为什么要让他回到我身边?
当我跌了再站起来时,为什么要让我再踩进陷阱呢?

为什么?

为什么要让我认为失而复得是幸福的到来呢?
为什么要让我承受更残酷的痛呢?

我怨你。。。

怨你让我如此不由自主的去爱一个我恨入骨的人。。
怪你为什么让人们相信好人有好报,
让我拼了命去为人,把全心,真心都挖出来去对待人,
却得到如此的报应。。

我怨你。。。

怨你为什么如此的爱一个我恨到心寒,却爱到愿意的人。。。

为什么?

为什么还让我为他如此心痛??

为什么?

为什么还让我如此想念??

为什么?

为什么还让我如此爱他???


 

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Satisfy, Proud.. Appreciated? Not d Person I Wished to~

Felt so Satisfy n Proud wit My Green Bean Dessert~^^

Its Yummy though..


Well.. At least I felt so..



Haiz..

But d Him dat I Wished so Much to like it?

Doesn't even wanna Try?..

T_T

Sweet But Short~

He came into my Dream laz Nite*

We were in the Library..

Sitting so Closely,

Discussing over a book~


Can You please come in Earlier next time?

At least Bid me a Proper Gudbye B4 my Alarm clock Strikes off??

Hmmm~

Monday, April 23, 2012

I Might Not Nid A "G".. But At Least Gimme A "C"~


I had once said dat Us as Gurls do Not nid a guy to Survive~

Ask Urself afta U carried a Whole Bunch of Groceries home,


Do U feel Gud & Satisfied?



Well..

Not Onli satisfied..

I actually feel Proud of Myself^^


*Phew..

Though so..

Gotta Admit dat Gurls are Born to be Protected.. :-$

No Guys? Well at Least giv Us a Car to help carry?

Its oso a State of Independent though~

Right?? *Winkx 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

An Expected But Unwanted News fr Home~

See dis Cute Little One?
How Much Wud U LUV Him?
*Sad~
I had juz received a call fr Home..
A call fr my Bro-In-Law claimin He wanted a DIVORCE~
Wats Marriage all About??
Dis Kid is less den 2Years Old!!
Whose fault?
Who m I to Judge?
No matter Who's Fault isit,
D Kid is Inocent... T_T



Wat sud I do??

How do I help my Family fr Breaking down?

How do I help dis Poor Nephew of mine?



Saturday, April 14, 2012

Apologize 4 d Missing In Action~


I'm Sincerely Apologizin 4 Missin In Action~

I'd Realize oni dat In Here,

I can Express my Happi, Hurt or Numb w/o Annoyin Others..

Instead of Flooding ppl's Wall, Oni those who Care or Interested will Drop by~

Here's some Update~

I had a New Job,

Well not exactly New though; as I had Fly for omost 2yrs~

I patched up wit Him 2yrs ago~
D "Him" which I'm with when I started Bloggin~

I Accepted Him with d Heart which Craves for Luv & Happiness..

Juz like when He's afta me,

D way he wans So much 4 me to Accept His Luv*

4 d 1st few Months,

I realli did feel like I'd found my Own Fairy-Tale...

*Sigh

Isit True dat Fairy-Tale doesnt Laz in Reality?

We r Together.. We Luv.. *Do we?

We r so Close.. But yet so Far..

I'm so Confuse..

Crying juz doesnt solve Our Problem...

D Urge of leaving Him is so Strong..

So Strong..

Y am I holding Bac?

Honestly.. I dun know..

Sumhow,

I'm Still Hopin dat one day,

He'll Understand~

*Big Sigh~

I'm Still Holding On Though!!

Thanks for all d Nice Comment & Great Smile^^

I'll Hold on Wit All Those Smiles Tru my Path!!